I’m afraid to vomit,
It makes me suicidal,
Others don’t understand why I’m afraid to vomit,
They don’t understand how that fear makes me suicidal,
It’s so stressful worrying if I’m going to vomit.
It can make it hard to eat,
I start to lose weight,
I used to be so afraid to eat,
It stressed me that I kept losing weight,
I wish it wasn’t hard to eat.
Still I keep surviving with the fear,
I manage to stop myself from vomiting,
Still I keep finding ways to deal with the fear,
Always thankful when I stop myself from vomiting,
Perhaps one day it won’t be so stressful dealing with the fear.